Notes From The Flip Side: 04.15.2001
Another cold morning. I'm shivering as I type. I've allowed the dishes to stack up in the sink; I finally got around to doing laundry yesterday. My floor seems much cleaner now.
I just went through the most amicable split I've had in ages. We still email as much as we did while we were involved. We don't talk on the phone as frequently now, but when we did chat on the phone, it was usually just to decide if you were spending the night here or if I needed to get in my car.
Now I'm back to working all night, listening to music all the time, typing constantly. I've finally finished some of those books that I had been meaning to read while we were dating. And I don't regret a single moment of the time we spent together. I don't regret a single morning when I woke up next to you and watched you sleep.
I'm beginning to wonder if I'm really cut out for relationships. I don't like casual sex, but it seems like I don't know how to find love or make it stay. Usually, I'd rather be traveling - unshaven, unwashed, hungry and smoking - and I've yet to meet anyone who would travel like I do for fun.
I'm beginning to acknowledge the possibility that I may well be better off alone; that I may have great friends but that I might need to forego romance and simply enjoy life.
The Movielife interview is online.
Ann Beretta "New Union ... Old Glory," Leatherface "Mush," Fairweather "If They Move ... Kill Them," Hot Water Music "Never Ender," Selby Tigers "Charm City," Sixer "Saving Grace"